The build up to my surgery day was not an easy one. I was so nervous and anxious about putting all this behind me. The morning before my surgery Dr. Kyle called and said he had to cancel the surgery cause he hurt his knee and would not be able to stand. I was really bummed, and down right mad at moments, but if anyone knows what its like to have your body work against you, its me, so I could sympathize. I never know when my Chiari will flare up and keep me from doing the things I want, so it was hard to stay mad. But disappointed that is was lurked around and I was getting really sad.
A week later Dr. Kyle's knee was worse and he was getting MRI's and facing his own battles so we decided to try to find another surgeon. There were 3 others in NWA and none of them would take my case. They were either to full, not doing decompression's any longer, or gonna be out of town. So after praying about it and a high recommendation we decided to present my case to Dr. Ali Krisht in Little Rock. After 2 days I learned he decided to take my case. I was elated! Finally I had a surgeon (again) and could take a step in the right direction. Yesterday Dr. Krisht called me himself and told me he had a random opening on April 3 and that I would have pre-op appointment on the 26th. Since he is a world renowned surgeon his wait was supposed take till the end of June. So it was a HUGE blessing to get in so soon. I have talked to several people who have had their surgeries done by him and they all raved about how amazing he is, so I am pretty excited.
I have been through so many different emotions lately. I feel like I have emotional whip-lash at the moment. I am so happy to finally have everything set (again) and so thankful for all the prayers that so many people have been sending in my behalf. Feeling all the love from my friends and family, have literally kept me afloat. With you your love and kindness, I don't know where I would be right now. Everyday is a battle for me, not only against my Chiari which has been flaring up a lot the past few days, but emotionally too. I fight to be positive, and to be the kind of person I want to see in the world. I am not perfect and I have certainly had my doubts, and worry's along the way, but I hope to show people that no matter how hard life gets, you can pull through with all the love that is around all of us.
Its important to me to share this experience with others and help them to be strong too. We all have our personal battles we are fighting everyday. Sometimes we lose faith, and feel like we can't continue, but we must remember we are never alone. God is always there for us, and he has literally felt our pain and suffering. He has felt the suffering of everyone in the entire world. If he can get through all that and be here for us, then we can get through it too. I hope everyone continues to have faith and support in their battles, and I thank you for all your prayers for me during my fight with Chiari.
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